HOW I PICKED MYSELF BACK UP AND GOT GOING AGAIN
INTRODUCTION
Sometimes it can seem that all successful people in life or anyone that has achieved greatness, has done it easily. You may never really look at someone who has succeeded in life and think, ‘I wonder what struggles they have faced first?’ It’s just not what we do. We see what we see and have our own assumption – which I can tell you now – is never the full true story. This is because we never really see the journey, the struggle, the ‘behind the scenes’ process of change. But I can tell you that there is no-one in this world who has achieved greatness without setbacks, failures and struggles… and in my case here – a lot of stress.
Over the next 4 weeks I am going to share with you one of my recent setbacks. A setback that in my head at the time, shouldn’t have happened, it wasn’t supposed to be like this, how did I end up like this? you know that kind of experience, leaving me feeling so stressed, I didn’t know what to do next, where to turn, who to trust, and I didn’t even know if I could trust myself but what I understood was – it was me who allowed myself to get to this point. And that just shows you that failure or setbacks in life can happen to ANYONE.
I would love you to read and relate and understand that although the subject may not be what you are experiencing right now - the process or struggle may be similar and that may be a good thing because if you follow my journey over the next 4 weeks then you might feel inspired to take some of the steps that I took to make a change or a shift in your life.
PART 1
“HOW THE HELL DID I END UP LIKE THIS???”
To the outside world I was doing so well, so bubbly, so happy, so positive and probably to some – I had it all worked out in life. This was back in 2019 when I had been on a career journey that looked so exciting and promising but to experience one of the most stressful setbacks on the journey and probably in my life because I really didn’t believe I would find myself at this point.
The photo below is of myself and my best friend on a Christmas night out, when usually we laugh all night but I actually found it hard to even smile. I cried on the way to pick her up because I didn’t want to go out but I knew she wanted to cheer me up so I forced myself. I was emotionally, financially and what felt like mentally broken, although I will state here now that I understood the power of the mind so I knew that it would change but I just felt so stuck and felt each day I was sinking further instead of getting ahead. I just wanted to switch off from the world. I remember thinking I needed the world to pause so I could reset and catch up again (very interesting for what actually happened in 2020). I can only describe it as I was on a downward spiral…
I had invested so much in myself from a very young age, in fact I spent all my money from my early 20’s on courses to help me grow as a person and build a career for myself in helping others with their mindset, their personal growth, their struggles to get unstuck and to help them change their life for the better because I did it so many times myself in other areas. But here I was sitting with my head in my hands thinking ‘How the hell did I end up like this?’ living with a minus bank account, living from the help of my partner and opening the fridge to see nothing but sauces and doing food shops day by day, (although I was still so grateful for this), struggling to pay my bills just living from a state of disbelief that I was actually at this point. I felt like a failure, I was so embarrassed and what felt worse was that I could write a book on the mind and how to use it to grow but here I was sitting like a total fake because I didn’t have the results I thought I would have…
After months of stress, worry, fear and not knowing my next move, I realised that I had to make some kind of change to get free from this mess but first I had to realise where exactly I was and where I wanted to go and then it really hit me that that was the problem here… I didn’t know where I was going. I knew my purpose in life and my goal was to help others as a career but my vision wasn’t clear, I was successful in most areas of my life but I knew nothing about business and how to create my vision around it.
I had left my full-time job believing I would be somewhere else, but what I didn’t actually do was have a clearly defined goal and a clear vision of what that looked like so therefore I had took the wrong action and these were the consequences. I had got myself stuck in my life and I was the only person who could get myself unstuck.
I knew I had to make a decision…
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